16 of May 2008
Today is the pledge for Unidus. I felt in my heart that I should pledge to give towards the Kingdom of God. I can really see the building will be a huge blessing towards the community and i really believe it will be a huge impact to Brisbane.I know it will be a worthy investment towards the Kingdom of God.
The night before, i decided to ask Justin about the pledge because I was worry that I won't be able to fulfill it. I also decide to give the amount under my circumstance and not what God wants me to give. Therefore Justin told me to seek God about it and ask for forgiveness and make it up with God. He also told me his testimony about the previous pledge.
I was really touched by what he said. I then decided to seek God and pray about it. After praying and seeking God about it, God convicted my heart with an amount that I wouldn't expect. Although the amount is huge, this time, my heart is right before God, I trust God that he will provide it for me.
I really sense that this will be a test of faith for me. God have challenge me to have a lot of faith in him even to the extent of sacrficing things that I cannot let go. Funny thing was that, after my God convicted me to the amount he wants me to give, I immidiately sacrifice one of the things that separates me apart from God and the thing that I spent most of the time and money into.
This thing which is a arcade racing card game (Wangan Maximum Midnight 3), I decided to put those card away so that I won't be distracted with it and use all my money and time into this thing. I really sense that there is more sacrifice that I would need to make to fufill this pledge. I am willing to sacrfice because I can really see the potentianl of Unidus.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
A Problem with a very good friend
This happend a year ago.
I was used to have feeling towards this girl. I had a desire to have a relationship with her.
So, on Valentine's Day, I decided to give her flower and a letter letting her know that I love her and want to start a relationship with her.
I would expect that she would accept it but I was wrong. From the nice thing i did to her, it all went very wrong. She rejected me. She started to treat me mean and harsh. She started to avoid me. She started to hate me.
One time, I went on MSN and i decided to talk to her about it because I really do cherish our relationship. So i decided to talk to her but she didn't really want to talk to me. So I ignored her. I then decided to talk to one of my good mate.
I told him everything. He said that, he will talk to her for me. He started to talk to her. You would expect that he will solve the problem for me. But it wasn't expected. It ended up that both of them like each other. I was angry, I was furious.
I got so angry that I blocked them for every communication tools between them and ignored them and avoid them. Both of them tried to be nice to me again and wanted to be friends with me but I was so angry. Then one day, I decided that, it is no point getting angry with them. So I decided to forgive them.
Although we are friends, she still treated the same way she treated me when i told her about my feelings. She ignored me,avoided me and it seems like a knife backstabbing me. I was so angry and I decided to end the relationship with her as in not even being friend with her to the extent of not knowing each other.
Eversince then, we had never talked to one another.
After 3 months, 6 months, we both still never talked.
But after a year, I was at youth. We were going through a series called "Essential Relationship"
One time, Torchie went up and preach about Relationship Prespective: Loving Others, Love in Action!!
He preach about the importance of loving God and then other relationship will be blessed. It is like a triangle. If we put God at the peek of the triangle, and we love him, we will then start to love one another. Torchie also gave us a challenge and ask us to ask ourselves "What would Jesus do towards my conflict with another relationship?". God convicted me to solve this problem with this girl. I know in my heart, that it is wrong before God's eyes to not forgive her and also not to do anything about the broken relationship.
So finally, I decide to respond to God and I decided to solve this problem. So, I decided to go to my sheppard and tell him everything about it. He suggest way we can solve this problem. So finally, we came up with a solution.
I wrote her a email, apologizing for my attitude towards her. After couple of days, i receive a reply and she wanted to apologise to me a long time ago but she couldn't find a chance to do it.
I was like, wow, Praise God!!...that I am able to solve this problem. Not only I solve the problem, my relationship with her is restored. I really sense that God have a purpose for me why these thing happens.
I learnt that I should be more caring to others' feelings and not myself. I also love God more eversince that and I starting to love others like I love God.
I was used to have feeling towards this girl. I had a desire to have a relationship with her.
So, on Valentine's Day, I decided to give her flower and a letter letting her know that I love her and want to start a relationship with her.
I would expect that she would accept it but I was wrong. From the nice thing i did to her, it all went very wrong. She rejected me. She started to treat me mean and harsh. She started to avoid me. She started to hate me.
One time, I went on MSN and i decided to talk to her about it because I really do cherish our relationship. So i decided to talk to her but she didn't really want to talk to me. So I ignored her. I then decided to talk to one of my good mate.
I told him everything. He said that, he will talk to her for me. He started to talk to her. You would expect that he will solve the problem for me. But it wasn't expected. It ended up that both of them like each other. I was angry, I was furious.
I got so angry that I blocked them for every communication tools between them and ignored them and avoid them. Both of them tried to be nice to me again and wanted to be friends with me but I was so angry. Then one day, I decided that, it is no point getting angry with them. So I decided to forgive them.
Although we are friends, she still treated the same way she treated me when i told her about my feelings. She ignored me,avoided me and it seems like a knife backstabbing me. I was so angry and I decided to end the relationship with her as in not even being friend with her to the extent of not knowing each other.
Eversince then, we had never talked to one another.
After 3 months, 6 months, we both still never talked.
But after a year, I was at youth. We were going through a series called "Essential Relationship"
One time, Torchie went up and preach about Relationship Prespective: Loving Others, Love in Action!!
He preach about the importance of loving God and then other relationship will be blessed. It is like a triangle. If we put God at the peek of the triangle, and we love him, we will then start to love one another. Torchie also gave us a challenge and ask us to ask ourselves "What would Jesus do towards my conflict with another relationship?". God convicted me to solve this problem with this girl. I know in my heart, that it is wrong before God's eyes to not forgive her and also not to do anything about the broken relationship.
So finally, I decide to respond to God and I decided to solve this problem. So, I decided to go to my sheppard and tell him everything about it. He suggest way we can solve this problem. So finally, we came up with a solution.
I wrote her a email, apologizing for my attitude towards her. After couple of days, i receive a reply and she wanted to apologise to me a long time ago but she couldn't find a chance to do it.
I was like, wow, Praise God!!...that I am able to solve this problem. Not only I solve the problem, my relationship with her is restored. I really sense that God have a purpose for me why these thing happens.
I learnt that I should be more caring to others' feelings and not myself. I also love God more eversince that and I starting to love others like I love God.
Friday, May 2, 2008
My Life and Anger
At a very young age, my family faced some challenges that led to my parents divorce. And due to this, I never got to see my father a lot. Throughout childhood, I would miss my dad and feel quite sad that I couldn’t see him as often as I wanted. This sadness turned into frustration and eventually into anger. The problem that I had once seen in my family had eventually become the struggle I would have to battle with everyday.
When I grew older, my anger had continued to incubate in my heart and cause me to be a very short tempered person. I would frequently get angry with my friends and parents when things wouldn’t go according to my expectations. My reaction would even go to the extent of verbal and physical aggression. I was like someone who had gone mad. You could say that it had gone past anger into moments of rage. Also when I had conflict with others or had been angered by what someone did, I would grudgingly hold bitterness and take a long time to calm down to forgive and apologise. I knew my friends also feared me because they would run away when they knew I was angry.
However, one day at school, during lunch time, I was walking with my friends. Suddenly, I saw my science teacher in the science lab and he asked me to come and see him. I wasn’t sure as to why he had wanted to speak with me, and never would have known that this moment would hold the transformation of my life. As he had noticed the challenges I had faced, out of care and concern he began helping me. He led me to the story of Jesus Christ being the Son of God, coming down to his earth to die for our sin. He said that in John 3:16 – For God so love the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. At that point I was amazed that to know that someone actually loved me so much to the extent of sacrificing His life for me. I felt in my heart that this love was a very different kind of love that I have been used to. Compelled by this love, I opened my heart up to God to begin His transformation process in me and invited Him into my life to be Lord. And I never regretted making that decision.
Ever since then, I have grown to be a calmer person and don’t get as easily angered as before. A scripture verse that has continue to remind me of this is James 1:19-20(My Dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires). Although, I still face the residue of this struggle I know God will still continue to change me as I yield my life to Him. All of this is for God’s glory. If he wasn’t for him, I would be a very terrible person. Praise God for that. I have experience life change as a result of letting go of my past and trusting God with my future.
Before I finish, I would like to encourage everyone to place your hope and trust in Jesus. This was the greatest decision I had had ever made and I know that it will be the best decision you can make too. Thank you.
When I grew older, my anger had continued to incubate in my heart and cause me to be a very short tempered person. I would frequently get angry with my friends and parents when things wouldn’t go according to my expectations. My reaction would even go to the extent of verbal and physical aggression. I was like someone who had gone mad. You could say that it had gone past anger into moments of rage. Also when I had conflict with others or had been angered by what someone did, I would grudgingly hold bitterness and take a long time to calm down to forgive and apologise. I knew my friends also feared me because they would run away when they knew I was angry.
However, one day at school, during lunch time, I was walking with my friends. Suddenly, I saw my science teacher in the science lab and he asked me to come and see him. I wasn’t sure as to why he had wanted to speak with me, and never would have known that this moment would hold the transformation of my life. As he had noticed the challenges I had faced, out of care and concern he began helping me. He led me to the story of Jesus Christ being the Son of God, coming down to his earth to die for our sin. He said that in John 3:16 – For God so love the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. At that point I was amazed that to know that someone actually loved me so much to the extent of sacrificing His life for me. I felt in my heart that this love was a very different kind of love that I have been used to. Compelled by this love, I opened my heart up to God to begin His transformation process in me and invited Him into my life to be Lord. And I never regretted making that decision.
Ever since then, I have grown to be a calmer person and don’t get as easily angered as before. A scripture verse that has continue to remind me of this is James 1:19-20(My Dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires). Although, I still face the residue of this struggle I know God will still continue to change me as I yield my life to Him. All of this is for God’s glory. If he wasn’t for him, I would be a very terrible person. Praise God for that. I have experience life change as a result of letting go of my past and trusting God with my future.
Before I finish, I would like to encourage everyone to place your hope and trust in Jesus. This was the greatest decision I had had ever made and I know that it will be the best decision you can make too. Thank you.
My Life and Migration
As some of you may have known, I came to Australia about five years ago but I officially settle down in Australia three years ago. There is quite a lot of battle of my internal feelings and my decision whether or not if I should come to Australia to live or now when I was in Malaysia. I have fights with my parents because my mom and my stepdad wanted me to come with me to Australia. But I don't want to migrate to Australia because I have to leave my father alone in Malaysia. I cried almost every day because I will have to leave everything behind. My friends, my school, my taekwondo, my cyber cafe and many more things that I would have to leave behind.
I was stress and sad. I didn't know what to do. But one day, I decided to ask God for his help. I sense that God wanted me to leave everything behind. He said that he has a better plan for me in Australia. He gave me comfort and peace in my heart. I trusted God and decided to migrate to Australia despite the things I love in Malaysia and leaving my father behind. Therefore, this is why I am In Australia now.
I am a permanent resident of Australia. For my permanent resident, it expires every five years. Before the expiry date, I would need to go back to Malaysia to renew it because of the time that will take to renew the visa.
My permanent resident is going to expire at the end of this year. If I don’t get it renew, I would need to go back to Malaysia. There is a problem, if I go back to Malaysia, I would need to miss out a term of work which is important to me because it is my final year (Year 12). I was worry but I never give up hope. I asked God for an alternative solution because I trust God that he had a reason why he wanted me to come to Australia and I know he will find a solution to this problem.
Then one day, my mom just asked me, do I want to be an Australian citizen so I don’t have to go back to Malaysia. I was like, wow, Praise God, an answered prayer. My mom told me that I would just need to go for an interview for my citizenship and I was like, “yup thats cool mom, I can do that, no problem”
When we went there, my mom accidentally forgot to bring my application form and I was unable to do the test. They told me that I would need to come back again and make a new appointment and we thought that it is going take months to do it. Therefore I was beginning to worry. I was worry that it would be too late and I would need to go back to Malaysia.
But I never gave up hope. I continue to trust in the Lord and keep praying about it. Then during the April holidays, my mom and I decided to have a go although we didn’t make an appointment. I was like “erm, are you sure? Mom. I don’t think is going to work. We don’t have an appointment and I think they are going to kick me out.” My mom is like “Don’t worry, trust God and he will bless you all the way”. I trusted my mom and I trusted God that he will helped me.
When we reach to the office, we have a smooth transaction; we didn’t have to wait for a long time before we got a chance to get an interview. The lady asked us “Do you guys have an appointment?” And my mom said no. She said that we should make an appointment but it was a lucky day because there were two people on the job. So we are able to get an interview with her. Praise God! This time we got all of our application and paperwork that we needed.
They asked me questions and I answered them. Then they told me that, you passed and you are approved to be a citizen now. I was like Praise God!!.
Through this event, I have learnt a lot. I learnt to trust Him more. I learned that God have a plan for us and he has a purpose for everything that is happening in your life. I would like to encourage you all to keep trusting God for He has a wonderful plan for us in the future.
I was stress and sad. I didn't know what to do. But one day, I decided to ask God for his help. I sense that God wanted me to leave everything behind. He said that he has a better plan for me in Australia. He gave me comfort and peace in my heart. I trusted God and decided to migrate to Australia despite the things I love in Malaysia and leaving my father behind. Therefore, this is why I am In Australia now.
I am a permanent resident of Australia. For my permanent resident, it expires every five years. Before the expiry date, I would need to go back to Malaysia to renew it because of the time that will take to renew the visa.
My permanent resident is going to expire at the end of this year. If I don’t get it renew, I would need to go back to Malaysia. There is a problem, if I go back to Malaysia, I would need to miss out a term of work which is important to me because it is my final year (Year 12). I was worry but I never give up hope. I asked God for an alternative solution because I trust God that he had a reason why he wanted me to come to Australia and I know he will find a solution to this problem.
Then one day, my mom just asked me, do I want to be an Australian citizen so I don’t have to go back to Malaysia. I was like, wow, Praise God, an answered prayer. My mom told me that I would just need to go for an interview for my citizenship and I was like, “yup thats cool mom, I can do that, no problem”
When we went there, my mom accidentally forgot to bring my application form and I was unable to do the test. They told me that I would need to come back again and make a new appointment and we thought that it is going take months to do it. Therefore I was beginning to worry. I was worry that it would be too late and I would need to go back to Malaysia.
But I never gave up hope. I continue to trust in the Lord and keep praying about it. Then during the April holidays, my mom and I decided to have a go although we didn’t make an appointment. I was like “erm, are you sure? Mom. I don’t think is going to work. We don’t have an appointment and I think they are going to kick me out.” My mom is like “Don’t worry, trust God and he will bless you all the way”. I trusted my mom and I trusted God that he will helped me.
When we reach to the office, we have a smooth transaction; we didn’t have to wait for a long time before we got a chance to get an interview. The lady asked us “Do you guys have an appointment?” And my mom said no. She said that we should make an appointment but it was a lucky day because there were two people on the job. So we are able to get an interview with her. Praise God! This time we got all of our application and paperwork that we needed.
They asked me questions and I answered them. Then they told me that, you passed and you are approved to be a citizen now. I was like Praise God!!.
Through this event, I have learnt a lot. I learnt to trust Him more. I learned that God have a plan for us and he has a purpose for everything that is happening in your life. I would like to encourage you all to keep trusting God for He has a wonderful plan for us in the future.
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